my own rules

I make my own rules and my own plans.  When I really think about it all, it’s truly empowering.  I used to be terrified to be in charge of my own life.  What if I messed up?  I’d have no one to blame but myself.  Then, I stopped fearing failure, and I took control of my actions.  Every decision this past year, I can 100% say it’s been my own.  I’ve failed.  I’ve succeeded.  More importantly, I’ve had the most freedom and happiness in my whole life.

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a subtle change

This post is entitled “a subtle change,” but the truth of the matter is, big changes are underway.  I am in a true turning point in my life right now, and I am reflecting on my past, present and future, with emphasis on the present.  In my past, there has been a lot of reflection. What I’m practicing at this moment, however, is taking action on those reflections.  There is so much to pour out on this subject, but for now, I will leave you with this: I am practicing being more open and honest with myself and others, no matter what, at all times, in all senses. 

a year can change you

A lot can happen in a year.  2015 has been my year that is without a doubt. I have grown in so many ways and really nailed down what I stand for and who I want to strive to become.  Of course, I am going to give you all a run down of how exactly how I have changed for the better this year, and you will get to see fun pics of some highlights of this year’s adventures with my friends, but to leave it at that would just be unfair.  Unfair because I am not the only one on this planet that has changed this year.  Every one of us has had an adventurous year for certain.

defending a passion

If you’re passionate about something, and I mean really passionate about something, you pursue it through all ends of the Earth.  You stand for it.  You believe in it.  You defend it.  This “something” can take many forms whether it be a career, hobby, person, etc.  For me, this something is Crossfit.  

two steps back for four forward

Sometimes when you are busy making heaps of progress, you forget to look back to reflect on how far you’ve come.  When striving for a goal, of course you want to head in the forward direction, but sometimes you have to go backwards to jumpstart yourself.  This concept holds true for all aspects of life: fitness, nutrition, health, heart, happiness, etc.  That is where I am at this current moment.  Without realizing, nor exactly volunteering, I took a few steps backward recently and this is what I discovered… 

dear jessi

Dear Jessi,

I don’t think I have ever been this genuinely and consistently happy as I have this year–and my happiness keeps escalating with  every day.  I have grown tremendously this year.  I’ve learned to let go of things out of my control.  I have learned to dismiss toxic people in my life, and to seek out and pursue only those that can lift me up and enhance my ongoing happiness and harmony.  This summer has been one for the books with so much growth, discovery, detoxification, adventure, love, confidence, and inner peace and contentment that I have not felt in a very long time.  

spring semester

Classes resumed this week for me!  Yay college!  I actually am really excited about this semester.  What has changed?  The more difficult classes?  Longer and busier schedule?  Nope!  My new outlook on life!  Remember my New Year’s Resolutions?  Yeah, those are still going strong–if not stronger than ever!  

the little things

I have been taking more time to reflect and enjoy the little moments in life.  You know, part of my resolutions and all that.  It is only day five of the new year, but my newly improved positive outlook on life, I can already tell, will make this year one of my best yet!  Only day five and I already feel happier, more in control of my own life and plans for my future.  I have goals, I have dreams, I am inspired! 

making 2015 my year

Thanks to 2014, I have become stronger and grown quite a bit as an individual (see my last post).  I am so excited for this new year as I have big personal goals and I plan on really sticking to them.  In my second decade of life, I am tired of “floating” around through life.  Granted, I do want to be more free-spirited, but in the grand scheme of things, I want to have vision.  I want to be a dreamer and a doer.  

chasing happiness

I started this blog as a health blog in memory of my best friend Jessi a few months ago. Jessi was my best friend that I waited to emerge all my life, and the two years I knew her, though short, I felt like we had been friends our whole lives. She was the one and only person I could relate to 100%. I knew she would always understand and help me through difficult times. It has been seven months to the night now. Seven months since I lost my best friend, confidant, and sister in Christ. I miss her every single day, and it still feels as fresh as the night she passed. I have been lying to myself thinking that things have been better. But the truth is, I am very lost.