raising my white flag

It’s weird to say this, but I’m surrendering to this war I’ve been fighting in my body.  I’ve mentioned briefly here and there about my symptoms and never ending trips to the doctor’s and laboratories, unless we’ve personally chatted, then I’ve probably ranted your ear off (sorry ’bout that…).  I’ve had viles of blood taken, physical examinations, EKGs, salivary tests and I’ve had to pee in a freaking jug for 24 HOURS.  TMI?  Nah.  Welcome to my personal hell these past few months.  What is worst of all however, is that I am still undiagnosed and the medical system has left me on my own again.  So here I am.  Left to keep on fightin’ until I don’t have fight left in me–and well, that day came this morning…

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two steps back for four forward

Sometimes when you are busy making heaps of progress, you forget to look back to reflect on how far you’ve come.  When striving for a goal, of course you want to head in the forward direction, but sometimes you have to go backwards to jumpstart yourself.  This concept holds true for all aspects of life: fitness, nutrition, health, heart, happiness, etc.  That is where I am at this current moment.  Without realizing, nor exactly volunteering, I took a few steps backward recently and this is what I discovered…